I wanted to post how I wished my boyfriend will be like .
but I guess it's pointless to write it all out .
when it's dating period ,
I expected to be treated with love , feels the love , get some surprises occasionally , be the real woman in the relationship .
and not planning like what a guy should plan , deciding on places to go , deciding what to do next . you want me to understand how tired you are after each day of work ; understand that you have the tendency to forget stuffs .
but who would understand that I don't feel thelove at all ? just by saying you love me isnt enough . who would understand how tiring it is to plan for stuffs , who would understand the feeling of being disappointed during on my own birthday with the fact that I have to plan for everything myself ? but when it's your bday , you would expect me to wish you at 12mn sharp , you KNEW I would plan your bday nicely . all these I've been doing , should be what a boyfriend should do . I'm your girlfriend , I'm not your wife . o told you many many times do not treat me like your wife yet . I'm a girl , I need to be pampered , to be love . my friends love me more than you do . & that is not very good . you know , you're very different before we got together and after we got together . you once asked me if I'm giving up . i really dunno how to answer that question , bcos I couldn't bear to give up .
but at the same time , I dunno how long I can hang on till , repeatedly telling myself you'd change ,
but again and again I'm ended up in disappointment .
all these things are in you . I know it's hard for you to change them , & it's hard for me to accept them too . I really don't think I have high expectations for my boyfriend . ok I really dunno .
but I don't feel happy anymore . the disappointments made me teared so many times . i know you'd read this space like you always do .. Posted via LiveJournal.app. | ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1){kind=small}
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